Song of Years

It has been a very long time since I became so engrossed in a movie that I also cried with the characters. This movie specially touched my heart because an hour before I watched this film, a friend of mine told me about a major decision he was making.

Listening to him, I felt like Suzanne hearing Wayne talk about enlisting in the war. My emotions were mixed: I was afraid, yet happy for him and at the same time very sad. But I also knew that I have to be brave and set aside any feeling for the greater good.

Sophie's reply to Claire's letter talks about taking the chance while you still have it. There are no rewinds in our lives. What happened yesterday will never happen again tomorrow. Every opportunity is unique in itself. But sometimes, and very rarely does it happen, that Fate gives us another chance in order to right a wrong, make straight what is crooked, expose what has been hidden, say the unutterable and to finally surrender to the inevitable.

I ask myself then- would I have the courage when it finally comes? If Fate did give us that chance, would we take the risk?

"What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side by side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.

What if? What if? What if?

I don't know how your story ended, but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart.

I don't know what a love like Juliet feels like: a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for. But I'd like to believe, if I ever were to feel it, that I'd have the courage to seize it.

And if you didn't, I hope someday you will."

"You called in trouble and I delivered you; I answered you in the secret place of thunder, I proved you at the waters of Meribah. Open your mouth wide and I will fill it."

I love the sound of the pouring rain outside my window; It makes for a good background music.

Rain - cleanses the body and soul from impurities, gives new life.

And like a withered tree that was brought to life by the rain, so was I finally healed from my "Period of Mourning" which lasted for 3 months.

I now came to terms with myself, stopped fighting my inward battles and finally surrendered regarding certain  matters close to my heart. I now realized that opening yourself to love does not make you weak. In fact, it is the boldest thing you will ever do. Yes, you will become vulnerable and therefore expose yourself to various emotions, but it is worth it. It's ok to feel pathetic because if you haven't, then you have not really loved at all. Love is freedom. And the sooner I accepted it, the sooner I was healed.

I also learned that love is a risk. Happiness is part of the package but so is also being hurt. It's part of the risk we all must undergo. If we won't risk, then we will never know and we will end up having so many hang -ups in life.

Lately, there have been some issues regarding a certain friend of mine. Now this will be the first time that I will express my opinion regarding this matter without anyone interrupting me or dictating me as to what and how I should feel and think.